Bakemonogatari

I have seen very little of it but I find it strangely depressing, I think because the lesbian character's feelings are so blatantly disregarded.

I'm working nine hours at CVS today. I worked close yesterday night at Jo-Ann's. I hate work. All this semester has taught me is what I don't want to have to do ever again. I feel way more depressed than usual and I know I'm bad at both of those jobs. I don't want to have to ring up couples who decided that Northampton would be the lovely scene for a Friday night date. I miss having jobs that make me feel fulfilled. I liked UMass Security because it enabled me to interact with all kinds of people regularly and I could do other stuff while I was there (also, I got to sit the entire time, which was pretty sweet). Camp gave me such a huge sense of fulfillment in that I got to help kids come out of their boxes and experience music and dramatics in new ways. I wish I could feel that again instead of dealing with shitty customers and shitty situations with shitty coupons on shitty soap day after day. The repetition is killing me. I can't stand how every day is exactly the same as the last fourteen. I want to be in classes, learning new things and taking tests and working towards a future. I don't even know what I want that future to be anymore, but I know I want it, and not a life of craptastic retail jobs.

Sorry about the massive gap. A lot has happened.