Day 4

Today's OOTD is my jeggings from Walmart, blue and black polka dot shirt with bow from Dress Barn, red cardigan from Dots, and tan and lace boots from Wet Seal. Accessories include red sparkly rose earrings, blue ring, and red bow headband with white polka dots.

Day 3

On the fifth day, God made Friday, and he saw that it was good.

Day 3 is numbers 4, 10, and 36. Grey fake uggs, bootcut jeans, and black and white polka dot shirt.

 "Faye, I don't know how to p-"
" CLICK. I'M DONE. BYE."

Accessories include orange and white headband from that store in Northampton in Thornes with the cool headband rack, heart earrings from somewhere in Boston, and white scarf from a cart in NYC. I'm also wearing my sister's Claddagh ring. My nana is from Ireland and my grandparents went over to visit when I was in middle school and they brought back Claddagh rings for all their granddaughters and gave them out when we each turned fourteen. My sister just got hers at the end of January, and hers is too big and mine is too small so we just swapped until we can resize them. I like mine better and she likes hers better but oh well, for now. Accessories also include the weird lip rash I get every winter at some point.

Day 2

Oh man, is Blogger not mobile-friendly. Due to my laptop's internet being down, I'm typing this on my phone. Anyway, here's the OOTD and Day 2 of my 40 Items, 40 Ways, 40 Days.

Today, it's 8, 20, and 27. Teal sweater, black flats with a shiny toe, floral dress. Accessories include black opaque (control top like a preggo 30-year-old) tights, blue and green necklace, stainless steel hoop earrings, owl ring, white patent leather bow. Same watch and white bracelet on left and leather cuff on right as always.

I'm going to try putting these past two posts on my LiveJournal, too, so maybe they'll finally let me in the Fatshionista community. Maybe. Anyway, thanks for reading, and have a good day!

Lent, and 40 Items, 40 Ways, 40 Days

Here's my list:

 Here's Day 1. Numbers 1, 2, 3, and 4.

 Accesories include black hairbow and fake pearl earrings.

Accessories also include Henry the Cat.

Torrid and Why Won't Fatshionista Effing Accept Me

Added some photos of the dress. Front, side, back, and LOOK! POCKETS, SON!

Apparently I never posted this. Whoops.

New Video!

New video after a long dry spell. Totally unedited because I have no time and it's short anyway. Just sort of an update.

Oh my god oh my god you guys

I just had the single most amazing summer at camp EVER. My counselors were awesome, we put on some really good shows, and I MADE FRIENDS! I was super absent from my blog all summer but now I'm back in Methuen and super have-nothing-to-do-until-I-get-a-job-and-no-one's-calling-me-as-I-weep-by-the-phone-desperately-hoping-for-an-interview-anywhere, so I'll hopefully be posting a lot. Also, I got a twitter, but it's not through this email address, it's through the one I actually use for email. It's https://twitter.com/ksmh333. Now, you can follow me in all new fun ways! Yay for you! I'll make a video in a bit, but for now, I must do things not related to the internet. Farewell.

Stress

I am ridiculously stressed right now. I recorded a different video and it got messed up while editing so now I think I have to redo the whole editing process if not scrap it, I'm trying to get a new license because mine went missing and I have no valid photo ID, and I'm trying to avoid moving back to Methuen for as long as possible. Please forgive me if my videos are a little snippier than usual because I am reeeeally in over my head.

New Video!

I'm stuck in Methuen for six days, so I'm being really productive and making videos and working on my cosplays. Have a video! Record edit and upload time, beeteedubs. Less than 24 hours.

Crafts 'n Shit

I have this problem where I get really excited to make things and I'm fairly creative but can't actually execute my ideas for shiiiiit. I love crafting, and I love Mod Podge, and I love being creative, but I just can't make my ideas... well, work.

I'm currently working on two projects. Number one- I'm making a paper wreath to put on the door to my room after Ash moves out (this coming Saturday). I'm cutting petals out of pages from a dollar-store romance novel and gluing them in rings, kinda like so, except with words instead of music, and fanning out from the center with no hole instead of swirling in a circle. I'm going to put a big red heart in the middle or something deep and meaningful like that.

The other project (projects?) I'm working on is my Anime Boston costumery. I'm going all three days. Friday, I'm going as Pinkie Pie from MLP, wearing a pink t-shirt I'm making her cutie mark on via felt and glue gun, a pink tulle tutu (holy shit so much pink tulle everywhere), yellow leggings, pink hightops, and a blue hairbow. Other pink, yellow, and blue accessories may be included. Saturday is my biggest costume day, and I'm going as Pinkie Pie on Halloween. My friend, Alexa, made a good costume for Twilight Sparkle on Halloween, and hopefully we can hang out together so our costumes make a little more sense in context. I'm making the top half out of a white tshirt with white feather boas all over it (nothing says convention like buying eight white feather boas at AC Moore). I'm making a white tutu using the same method as before, except both times I'm doing it with elastic hot-glued in place instead of ribbon and fabric. I also found a much faster (but less neat) method of cutting the tulle. You just bunch it into one long strand (if you're like me and bought six yards of hot pink tulle at a time in one giant cut of fabric) and cut off two-inch chunks. Let them fall on the floor as you snip away and expand out into big long two-inch-wide strips of tulle. Anywho, I bought white leggings at Walmart for like six dollars and yellow Rit dye on sale at Jo-Ann's. I am going to dye the leggings yellow and hope for the best (and use them for Friday, too). Same pink hightops. I'm wrapping one boa into a sort of hat with a red felt comb on top for the head, using a ribbon to tie it in place around my chin. I'm intending to carry around a sack of candy to give people if they want. Sunday, I'm going to be a really lazy Rainbow Dash. I already have a rainbow tutu and a blue shirt in her color, and I'm making her cutie mark out of felt to whipstitch onto the shirt. I have white Converse that I've drawn on in the past but I'm going to try and bleach them to redo them in rainbow stripes. Black leggings. Rainbow kneesocks. Maybe whipstitching blue felt wings on the back. Rainbow hairbow. Rainbow accessories (I have a lot of them). Hooray. Lazy as shit.

I'm mad excited for AB. I was talking with Brandon as I was cutting tulle about how half the fun of conventions is preparing and the anticipation when making a cosplay. I'm hoping all my ideas work out... So far I've only started the pink tutu. Wish me luck.

Aaaand now we're all caught up

Aw yiss

I deleted my old blog and it felt gooooood.

Another Video

This time our topics of choice are safes, winter lumps, and coming out as a lesbian dating a trans man.

This video was pain in the butt to edit, hence it being up eleven days after it was recorded, because the audio wasn't working for a long time.

OH MY GOD A VIDEO

That's me, alright. I made this video a few nights ago, actually, but the internet being down and all, I couldn't upload it until just now. I'm so awkward. Aca-awkward.

Pink Hair, Don't Care

Welp. I impulse-dyed my hair pink. I am rather fond of how it came out.

Last picture of me with brown hair.

 Single Ladies-ing with bleach.

 More Single Ladies.

 And this is me blonde.

 This is the only shower cap I own. Whoops.

The final result. It's much pink-er in person, but there you have it.

I was content to just have it pink for a short while, but strangely enough, it's been a whole week and it's exactly the friggin' same. Like, still vibrantly pink, even though I shower and wash my hair every day. What? Oh well. Good thing I love it.

I've been on a DIY kick lately. I think being unemployed does that to you. (Oh yeah. I lost my job. Oh boy.) I'm off to the dollar store to pick up some supplies for two I'm attempting, a ruffle umbrella and a handmade journal, here and here, respectively. I can't use a sewing machine for shiiiiit, so I am also utilizing this webpage. I love the internet. Wish me luck.

Cost of Cute

As most plus-size girls know, cute ain't cheap.

Because we are such a niche market the prices for decent clothing skyrocket. Lane Bryant is a go-to for many girls, but their prices are far too high to regularly buy clothes. I personally prefer Dress Barn because their tops tend to fit me better and have a nicer flow to them and their dresses are totally gorgeous, but Dress Barn is even more pricey. 

My solution tends to be to invest in really nice pieces that I can somewhat seamlessly use from season to season, like a colorful dress or a ruffled blouse that fits just right, and add cheaper accessories. 

For example, today I'm wearing a sleeveless dress from Dress Barn with a stretch nylon shell and a sheer outer layer, purchased during the summer. The dress has a white background with what look like paintbrush strokes of various green, purple, and blue hues. The dress came with a matching ribbon around the waist to be tied in a bow at the hip, but I ditched the sash for today.

Instead, I added a purple button-up cardigan I bought at Walmart, of all places, in high school for around $15, a pair of forest green tights from Target two Christmases ago (spellcheck says that's the right plural of Christmas... I don't believe you, spellcheck, but I guess I have no choice for now), my usual leather band bracelet and blue watch, and a black hair bow from Claire's and black ballet flats from Lane Bryant (about $30, but I've worn them a ton, so I can justify it). Top it off with my current turquoise metal frames and it's a fairly cute outfit for early winter based around one summer dress. (I would have added my brown knee-boots but, due to a recent patch of cellulitis and related swelling in my left leg, I can't fit them on just yet.)

My sister is in town from Louisiana, and she's bugging me to "get off the laptop and come bake banana bread", so I'll add more on to this topic in a later post.

Banana bread calls.

Change of Pace

I've been dealing with a lot of not fun stuff this semester thusfar and I think if I change my blog to deal with things that make me happy to talk about, I'll do a lot better. I'm going to return to my original intent of discussing LGBT, plus-size fashion, and nerdy issues rather than my more recent diary-esque posts. To start off with...

Let's talk flat-chested plus-size chicks. 

As I've mentioned before, I am relatively flat-chested for a fat chick, weighing in at around a B cup. If you look at me sideways the widest part of my chest and the widest part of my stomach are pretty much even. I've had crazy problems with dresses in particular fitting weirdly up top because if it fits my stomach it tends to sag around my chest. My solution is usually to stick a solid-colored tank top underneath.

I have one dress in particular that is super-low-cut but too cute to give up on. It's green with white polka dots with a solid green interior layer (the outer layer being sheer). The top forms a sort of fake wrap dress, with the two halves of the chest overlapping slightly. Unfortunately, this slight overlap doesn't even begin to cover me. I'm wearing said dress today and I had to drive my two roommates to campus and I realized about halfway there that I had forgotten a tank top. My chest was hanging out for everyone in Amherst to see. It was also between popular class blocks, so almost all of campus was out and about and crossing the street, making my drive through campus and back excruciatingly slow. I'm slowly getting lower and lower in my seat like, 'Oh god don't look at me'. I finally get back to the apartment, get out of my car, and there's the creepy guy from downstairs and as he passes me he smirks and says, 'Hey,' and straight-up looks right directly at my lack-of-chest. Thanks, creepy guy.

I also want to order clothes online (in particular, from ModCloth), but I keep reading the plus-size reviews where people are like 'fits great all over!' and they have a 3x and 40H as their bra size. I need a dress for, like, a 3x and 44B. 

The search continues.

Bakemonogatari

I have seen very little of it but I find it strangely depressing, I think because the lesbian character's feelings are so blatantly disregarded.

I'm working nine hours at CVS today. I worked close yesterday night at Jo-Ann's. I hate work. All this semester has taught me is what I don't want to have to do ever again. I feel way more depressed than usual and I know I'm bad at both of those jobs. I don't want to have to ring up couples who decided that Northampton would be the lovely scene for a Friday night date. I miss having jobs that make me feel fulfilled. I liked UMass Security because it enabled me to interact with all kinds of people regularly and I could do other stuff while I was there (also, I got to sit the entire time, which was pretty sweet). Camp gave me such a huge sense of fulfillment in that I got to help kids come out of their boxes and experience music and dramatics in new ways. I wish I could feel that again instead of dealing with shitty customers and shitty situations with shitty coupons on shitty soap day after day. The repetition is killing me. I can't stand how every day is exactly the same as the last fourteen. I want to be in classes, learning new things and taking tests and working towards a future. I don't even know what I want that future to be anymore, but I know I want it, and not a life of craptastic retail jobs.